was having this question on mind for quite long.....
"will anyone actually stalk my blog?"
lol
just a random question.....

Farah and yeng ming was talking about me not knowing how to filert....-.-
ok...fine....maybe i really didnt know....but anyway!
who to filert to ?!
also noone what!=.=
haha
ok....go sleep now....mummy birthday......:D

a kiss, a hug....a date....a piece of memary.....how long will it last....
im questioning myselfe...at the same time....us....

it seems like we are ending...we do not dare to touch this topc when we are together...then...let me just ask myself....

how will i continue my life after u left.....
will it be normal?
back to its old track?
new starting....

while....i cant stand it when we parted!
and im afride....
i just cant get use to this kind of life after u go...shit man !

still in school ...doing WP project.....sin...
jinghui and Nat just left....

the song kiss and tell suddenly pop up....then i felt the lonelyness poping through my body...its weird...
i dont really their company...they most of the time talking to each other as if im not here....some how some what....after they left...i feel more alone....

im just weird...
ok start work...again

昨天读书到2点，嗯，是好学生呢！

had a math e quize...and i scored only 3 out of 20...darn sian....i blam meimei and mummy....cause i was teaching meimei her class test.....when actually i have a quize that will affect my GPA...-.-

anyway.....econ will have a quize soon....as in....around 10min or so later....real soon....
not jinzhang xia! good good!!!!

okok

i feel like going to sentosa!!!!!

skiped all the training this week....sian....reallly not feeling well...so sorry....:(

just really .. you know... kind of like...just tired of everything....especially when econ teacher called me to go down for retest..-.- totally sian...
and yah...was too tired to go for NRA training...


jk of the week....

me: Nat! Nat! did i tell you about my new crush??
Nat:huh?no!
me:oh! is************
Nat:who lai de?
me: got facebook? i show you...
later
me: darling i got tell you about my new crush??
jing hui: siyao ah?
me:..-.-
Nat:......=.=



at table tennise that day
liwen: not bad leh, kikyo sick eh still can play like that.
claire:huh? she sick?
liwen:yah
claire:she sick? she sick in the mind ah!
me: fuck you!

=.= ok that was cold...lol....

yog training tml...night!

最近发现，自己也开始觉得寂寞了。并没有什么特别的原因，或者说，我在逃避某个特别的原因。
因为知道不会有结果，所以，很努力的突出，很努力的放弃。
这样，好想把自己逼到了一个死角。一个无法翻身的死角。然后，又突然发现，想改变一切的时候，却很力不从心。
感觉上，自己成了生命中的旁观者，只能选择袖手旁观，无法参与。
曾经多次尝试要挤进去，去发现，自认为的成功，不过是昙花一现的错觉，美丽的错觉。
喜欢上男人，可说是幸，也可说是不幸。朋友昨天说，以前我爱上女人的原因是因为，女人更了解我的心里，我的想法，懂得用最好的办法逗我开心，让我不要哭。
女人会给我男生给不了的安全感，或者说女人本省就让人放下心房。

可是，我在他身上好像也看到了哪些，也感受到了那些。会看得出他心情不好，看得出他很兴奋，感受得到他的关心，甚至，有他在会有安全感。
在facebook看到他跟其他女生的照片会心里不舒服，当终于发现自己无法进入他们之中，不可能成为对他最重要的女生时，赶到的无力，很难过。

然后，会想起过去几个月一来相处的种种，我发现，爱情可以错的很美丽。他让你伤痕累累，却无法放下，让你哭这微笑，让你不计后果的付出，只为博君一笑。
我想，最好是在还没开始的时候，就赶快把它扼杀在摇篮里吧。因为，可以预知的结果，并不是我可以接受的结果。可以看到的未来，是没有未来。

也许对他，我有的只是依赖，因为我是懒骨头，对他只是一种信任，像对弟弟和哥哥的信任，只是一种喜欢，单单纯纯的被吸引而已。
这样，我放手，会不会伤害自己呢？

做个不牵手的普通朋友吧。
起码，会一直都在。

so i am suppose to be at Lt76 now=.=
and because of my stupidness....I DONT KNOW WHERE IS IT!
and when ppl hint me....i just ask them where is there?
so, now,....i ended up at sports hall.....1hr earlyer than training time=.= how sweet.....so hard working....=.=