was having this question on mind for quite long.....
"will anyone actually stalk my blog?"
lol
just a random question.....

Farah and yeng ming was talking about me not knowing how to filert....-.-
ok...fine....maybe i really didnt know....but anyway!
who to filert to ?!
also noone what!=.=
haha
ok....go sleep now....mummy birthday......:D

a kiss, a hug....a date....a piece of memary.....how long will it last....
im questioning myselfe...at the same time....us....

it seems like we are ending...we do not dare to touch this topc when we are together...then...let me just ask myself....

how will i continue my life after u left.....
will it be normal?
back to its old track?
new starting....

while....i cant stand it when we parted!
and im afride....
i just cant get use to this kind of life after u go...shit man !

still in school ...doing WP project.....sin...
jinghui and Nat just left....

the song kiss and tell suddenly pop up....then i felt the lonelyness poping through my body...its weird...
i dont really their company...they most of the time talking to each other as if im not here....some how some what....after they left...i feel more alone....

im just weird...
ok start work...again

昨天读书到2点，嗯，是好学生呢！

had a math e quize...and i scored only 3 out of 20...darn sian....i blam meimei and mummy....cause i was teaching meimei her class test.....when actually i have a quize that will affect my GPA...-.-

anyway.....econ will have a quize soon....as in....around 10min or so later....real soon....
not jinzhang xia! good good!!!!

okok

i feel like going to sentosa!!!!!

skiped all the training this week....sian....reallly not feeling well...so sorry....:(

just really .. you know... kind of like...just tired of everything....especially when econ teacher called me to go down for retest..-.- totally sian...
and yah...was too tired to go for NRA training...


jk of the week....

me: Nat! Nat! did i tell you about my new crush??
Nat:huh?no!
me:oh! is************
Nat:who lai de?
me: got facebook? i show you...
later
me: darling i got tell you about my new crush??
jing hui: siyao ah?
me:..-.-
Nat:......=.=



at table tennise that day
liwen: not bad leh, kikyo sick eh still can play like that.
claire:huh? she sick?
liwen:yah
claire:she sick? she sick in the mind ah!
me: fuck you!

=.= ok that was cold...lol....

yog training tml...night!

最近发现，自己也开始觉得寂寞了。并没有什么特别的原因，或者说，我在逃避某个特别的原因。
因为知道不会有结果，所以，很努力的突出，很努力的放弃。
这样，好想把自己逼到了一个死角。一个无法翻身的死角。然后，又突然发现，想改变一切的时候，却很力不从心。
感觉上，自己成了生命中的旁观者，只能选择袖手旁观，无法参与。
曾经多次尝试要挤进去，去发现，自认为的成功，不过是昙花一现的错觉，美丽的错觉。
喜欢上男人，可说是幸，也可说是不幸。朋友昨天说，以前我爱上女人的原因是因为，女人更了解我的心里，我的想法，懂得用最好的办法逗我开心，让我不要哭。
女人会给我男生给不了的安全感，或者说女人本省就让人放下心房。

可是，我在他身上好像也看到了哪些，也感受到了那些。会看得出他心情不好，看得出他很兴奋，感受得到他的关心，甚至，有他在会有安全感。
在facebook看到他跟其他女生的照片会心里不舒服，当终于发现自己无法进入他们之中，不可能成为对他最重要的女生时，赶到的无力，很难过。

然后，会想起过去几个月一来相处的种种，我发现，爱情可以错的很美丽。他让你伤痕累累，却无法放下，让你哭这微笑，让你不计后果的付出，只为博君一笑。
我想，最好是在还没开始的时候，就赶快把它扼杀在摇篮里吧。因为，可以预知的结果，并不是我可以接受的结果。可以看到的未来，是没有未来。

也许对他，我有的只是依赖，因为我是懒骨头，对他只是一种信任，像对弟弟和哥哥的信任，只是一种喜欢，单单纯纯的被吸引而已。
这样，我放手，会不会伤害自己呢？

做个不牵手的普通朋友吧。
起码，会一直都在。

so i am suppose to be at Lt76 now=.=
and because of my stupidness....I DONT KNOW WHERE IS IT!
and when ppl hint me....i just ask them where is there?
so, now,....i ended up at sports hall.....1hr earlyer than training time=.= how sweet.....so hard working....=.=

每一只宠物，都是天使，他们来到主人的身边，背负着上帝给他们的使命。
小黑死的时候，我哭了好久，好难过当时没能在国内看他，照顾她。
那时，他5岁
大熊，不过是个8个越大的宝宝，对这个世界还充满了好奇，有好多东西他还没有尝试过。
真的不要死好不好。
我怕我会崩溃的。
那小子不过是个婴儿（虽然是巨婴）哈哈

如果你死了，我会哭，会哭得很惨。
可是现在看着你受委屈，看着你难受，我还是会想要哭。。。。

熊熊会健健康康的等我们回去对吧~

from Kelly to Lerain

have been a really long day...lol class gana end at 5pm.....Econ now....sian...his lesson just have never been exciting a little bite....

kelly is having her very-first-day of school-in-singapore today...and she DIDNT reply my sms :(
cause was having a log break between math and ITL, so was thinking of calling her and ask her about how's things going....

btw, from today onwards, we should start calling her Lerain, that's her new name, haha we got it for her ytd night, since everyone thinks that "kelly" will just screw up her school life from the very moment she intro herself....haha k...so we really thought it was that bad.

wanted to to go Sentosa ytd...since it was our last-day-of-freedom...but ended up going shopping and borrowing books....Aunt was on phone with uncle for like....a whole eternaty.....yah that long....so..it waslike 4++ when we want to step out of the house....then Lerain was like "faster lah..blah blah blah" (yah, she got irradated whenever ppl are slow..-.-)

15:37 now....should go study a while...

byesssss

ps pola is sake....and he is still sake.....(praying hard for his health)

lo lo lo

wo wo wo! i have to admit the i really dont have the habit of keeping a blog sia:( haha, cause i can really just forget that i have a blog....and btw....i still forget my own blg link often...=.= how nice.....just yi ge lame.......haha


hoho...went basamalam(spell like tht ah?) with sis ytd.....spent $20 + on food!!!!hahaha.....then was like....eat until shuang!

meeting ITL goop for project.....=.= ahhhhhhh study......:(((

dancing ...tues....looking forward...but stilll kind of scare.....you see?! im still just not out of the whole thing yet!!!!!!!!!ah!

will i be dancing again

went ds ytd...training was like...ok lah...then first time trying to have to ask-around-for-partner....=.= just weird lor....then was like...hmmm idont know....dance with this person whom i guss is around 180+ or so...no idea...just one word..."tall"=.=

was like...heels+ standing really stright...and its like....my eveys can only see his nack....k...never tried this before....

my partner was thinking of going competition and...im only free on sat....hahahaha dont kow how lah...at first he was saying that he is sure able to come on sat...then later before i leave...he went "i will tell you later....cause sat also got things on"
-.-

wonder if i really want to dance or not....really....just that..i never get that feeling....never again....the oh-baby-we-are-doing-it-so-well feeling....like....i cant use to people any more....

well well well....its just me.....me....the one who is not out of the whole thing yet...
will take time....but...2yrs....have really been a long time....
"WOHOOOOOOO!!!!! 'S ANYONE THERE TO HELP???!!!!!"

PS. pig is back....i found him on the other side of the wall the other day....
PPS. sis did well for her QT test...she finish the paper in 15 min.....:)

k...
byeeeeeeees

just so darn it!!!!

went back to AI for CO practice.....IT WAS LIKE HELL!!!!!

all the songs are like totally new to me....(sad) then it was combine practice!!!!and i was told that there will not be any self practice..just so sian lah!

I dont know why everyone think that I'm able to get the songs right at the end of the second month....=.= oh comeon! its not like im a god or wat!! and its not like i've see those songs before! AND its not like i've being touching my erhu for the pass few months-.-

darn it! the concert is on 26th! why the hell did i got my self into this kind of trouble! I have challangers on tht day....i think....

ohhh man!

go to figher out a way man!!!!

a true love's kiss

i've being dreaming of a true love kiss....da da dada da da dada...lalalalalalalalalaalalaaaaaaaa!!!!lala!!!!!!!!


a happy working songgg~~~~~~~~~A HAPPY WORKING SONG~~~~~~~~~~~~



so....im watching enchanted!!!!!!!!!!! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~lalala

blah blah...nothing!=.=

If you let me sleep now, i will just start snoring the next second.
bt too bad...-.- mum is home!...so no sleeping=.= reason "you will not sleep at night",by mum

didnt went for erhu lesson ytd...too tired...cant wake up. reach home around hmm...8++ then bath, then sleep liao!

was out with yuanhao,miaoling,huihan,liwen,weijian,ET,Marcus.....went watch world cup with them at school first, then went movie! OMG jaden smith very cute lor!!!!!!
but one thing from the movie make me quit curiouse is hat....do you kiss your best friend? as in....lips!...fine...looks like tongue!!!!!!!!!

hmm... will never want to french kiss with reno...=.= nor qian hui! hewwwww....

but anyway.....the movie says" this is china! everyone here knows kong fu" oh right! i havent change my nationality yet=.= lol....
sian....
going back to AI tml....ganna practice hard for the concert.....hmmmm sian.....concert....lele was saying white and black...=.= like waiter sia!

kk...sian!

帅哥！

今天在回家的路上，看到一个帅哥哦！真的好帅哦！嗯，有大东的博嘴唇。身高，恩比我高很多！哈哈

晚上回来，跟妹妹在家发了疯的拍照！！噢哈哈哈！女生在一起就是这样的啦！

题已经进入我的生活3天了，我也慢慢习惯有个室友的生活了，怎么说呢，又不方便拉，可是也很好玩！起码不无聊了！哈哈好了！movie with TT friends tml...must go sleep liao!!!!!!!!! :)

last paper!!!!!! :)

wohooooooor last paper....DONE!!!!!!!!!!

huuuu....someone ask me if i have twieter again...-.- hmmm like....no....ok well yes! i do have a acc...but whats the use when i actually forgot the password??? =.= yep useless-.-

anyway....was watching youtube...trying to find inspiration for our S&W dance....then ....went to see all the NRA uploads....omg! gotta say...thay are just sooooo great! proud to be one of them ^^ but then at the same time...its really stress to see all the dances up iin the net.....too good...cant help but to think if it is possiable for me to reach their level?! can i? or will i?

haha i just hope i can be as good....lala~~

sis is doing her QT revision again.....boring-.-

its those Questions that we do at sec3....when we were force to stayback after school.....=.=that one??? hummmmm...just......so IQish.....blah blah blah.....

puaafff

the very first paper was finished yesterday. hmmm not say very bad, but is not done up to my own expectation. There was this Question that Weijian was expaining to me in the phone just before the paper....and when the same type of question came put again in the actual paper, i forgoten the steps...-.- i freaking forget how to do ! And that was like, 4 marks!!!

hoo...then after the paper...Ben was saying "cfm full mark ah!" get me even more moody-.- why am i so stupid and other people can be so smart?!!!! ><

was walking to the gate with cui cui and zhuang min....when suddenly realised that im suppose to go to MDE office to get CD from Mrs lee....=.= gotta walk all the way back from atrium to blk 46...and mind you, i was wearing jeans-.-

sis is arriving tonight. hmm around 9pm or 10....wount be there to pick them up...mum want me to study at home and at the same time, do house work, wash clothes...-.- and get ready the bed-.- oh yah im home to study right? hmmm not?

so ganna send a email to the hydra ppl to have a outing after CT....but im wondering when and where to go.....there are like ppl from all levels.....hmmmm hard to arrange sia!

kk....lunch time-.- so hungry!

its CT day....early=.=

its really early....a long time before the test! but its over 12am....so its now 7th.....sis coming like tml....as in 8th....tml of 7th=.=

ok im craping..just want to take a break.....went out to study with friends today...but now realise that i still have tones of things dont know....-.- thank god that mum know how t solve them all....just that i need to bear with her loudness.....

was asking siyao how to do....then.....that 4 pointer...really ah...-.-

anyway....scientific notebook is just darn stupid! i was useing it at library this...i mean ytd afternoon...then it just happen that one typ of question i did it for more than 7 times and it all appears to be incorrect....when actually..my "in-correct-answer" is the same as the one they provide=.=

what the hell is wrong is the world?!
i always feel like hell when there is exams or tests.......and now i just so feel that way!=.=

(ganna need eergy drink to keep me awake tml!)
going school at 11.....to make sure that nothing happen...-.- typial! kia su=.=

k k....bk to math....nights~
i mean mornings.....

mugging before CT

At library Studying now....with Micah and ah po! lol, I'm sitting far far away from them now...on the floor behind a book shelve, while them sitting at a table...at the entrence place. hehe....there isn't any powerpoint at there area, and my lappy is out of bat! woho!

Should be doing revision now, but just finish editing this blog skin and cat waite to see it! hua! hehe so just come and write something lor...Im nolonger using Cbox at my "tag" section, using something new that i found online yytd....hehe then my links are empty....dont know who to link yet....lala ppl who want me to link them right....just either tag me or send me messages on FB....

wa wa wa! darn tired.....
oh yah! was saying not eating fast food and spicy things for this whole month....but just now went causeway point to have lunch with ah po......i ate Mc spicy....=.=...I mean, there is really nothing to eat there right?!

need someone to control me!!!!><
how bout we invent a "inter-national-anti-fastfood-day" ? sounds healthy????? :D
haha

k k....should start to do math now!


byeees~

A Sat. before CT

Its another starless night. 3day in a row.....there is'nt any star up there when i I look out.



was moving the things in my room today, sis is arriving in 4 days time. so there is a new bed setup in my room for her, then there is all my stuff, being packed up either move or throw...to make space. I cant help but to wonder, if really when she settle down, will our position be change? as in both dad and mum is obviously prefering her than me. I some times really suspect that they prefer her to be their daughter than me.....but anyway, lol they dont have a choice, right?! haha



CT-commen test is on the coming monday, should be studying now, but instead, im just doing my own stupid stuff, like...blogging....facebook-ing, online shopping, and all......hmmm just trying to get out of tht stupid and uneasy feeling that was put into me just now, during dinner. well well well, i dont know, it will just go of....soon.



has been a long time since i last write in a blog. haha really long, hmm...ok except the last post....about tht hellokitty house....lol!



haha should be stoping....yep, ganna do some more math and then go to bed!!!! wohahahahaha sleep!!!!!

what a hello kitty day!

因为功课的关系，今天有上网查资料哦，嗯，要做一个，像“我梦想中的家”一样的东西，所以啊，很自然而然的，我就去找了所有跟hello kitty有关系的资料！ 原来kitty生日是11越1日呢！
哦哈哈哈！
还有啊，我发现，有一间以 kitty为主题的别墅呢！里面全部都是kitty!
kitty 的厨房，kitty的卧室，kittycanting，kitty的浴室.....还有好多好多好多哦！！！！！
哇~~~~~~~~
长大以后，我要买一套房子，里面全部都要用kitty来布置~~~~~~~~
哇！！！！！梦想啦~~~~~~~~~~

while something new

wonder how many ppl wil get to see this....gosh..this is the number dont-know-what blog already....

its weird..when...one way..im trying to share and say...and on the other way....im hiding....from ppl....
not sure if im ganna keep it a secreat..but look. no password to it.....
was thinking that since im starting a new life at the new school why dont i just start everything....new.